Memory...is the diary that we all carry about with us.: July 2006

One for the money.

I'm here! I'm here! I'm finally here!

It's amazing. He's amazing. Perfect.

Be back later, he's on my shoulder.

It's tomorrow! Tomorrow! Freakin' tomorrow!
I have soooooo much to do, I can't even think straight. Lets see here, shall we?
I have to do a load of laundry at mom's house, so that I have my favorite PJ pants for sleeping, while I'm up there. I have to take Dottie to Daddy's house, and pick up the money from Daddy. Then I have to run to mommy's house to drop off the clothes that Kat will be using for the weekend. I have to pack up 10 outfits for Jaz, for the 4 days that Kat will be staying up in Broward with her. I have to finish packing me up, and I have to make sure I don't forget anything, that I may or MAY NOT need for the 6 days I'm up there. I have to get online, and confirm my flights, then I have to shower, so I can straighten my hair tomorrow, and pack it up to head to Jaz's for the night.
Tomorrow starts off frantically, as I have to take Jaz to work in the morning, then head to work for an hour or 2, then find a place to get a manicure and pedicure, before I go. Then I have to head up to Jaz's and be ready to pick her up from work, so that she can drop me off at Ft. Lauderdale airport in time for my flight. And here I was thinking I had all of this time to do all of these things, and I really don't. I can't forget my laptop or anything for my trip, or I'll be totally useless lol. On top of all of this, I'm sick and I'm nervous. Good Lord.
I'm already getting to that stage where I know I'm going to miss Kat more then I miss breathing...THE AIR. That has me even more nervous. Thats the only part I hate about vacations. I miss the kiddo so bad when I'm gone.
Hopefully, JT and Clara don't hassle me too much while I'm up there, or I'm just going to avoid their phone calls all together. I don't want them ruining this vacation like they did my Orlando one.
And thats my next two days in a nutshell.

Off to work, before the boss screams at me again for this HUD.

3's company

And the count down continues. On Friday, I'm hopping on a plane and flighting to a state I've never been to before, to see a bunch of people I've never seen, and to have a grand old time. I really hope it goes well. I know I shouldn't be so pessamistic, but I can't help it. I mean, I'm pretty sure everything is going to go well, but theres still that little apprehensive part of me that's terrified that if things aren't perfect, that I'm going to be devastatingly disappointed.

And then there's that part of me that's bursting at the seams with joy over the fact that I'm going to see the DREAMIEST boy in the entire known universe. And, hopefully, if all goes well, I'm going to hug and kiss and tackle and cuddle said dreamy boy, until he can't take it anymore. I like that boy way too much for my own good, honest.
Have I mentioned the fact that he's the most amazing boy I've ever known? Well, he is.

Time to go home.

Really big news!

Another God-child on the way!

I'm soooo excited!

So appropriate.

My hopes are so high,

that your kiss might kill me.

So won't you kill me,

so I die happy.

My heart is yours to fill or burst,

to break or bury,

or wear as jewelery,

which ever you prefer.

Time stands still

With pictures.

4 for all.

zOMG. Four days. zOMG. I should start packing tonight, just to make sure everything I need/want to take is washed and ready for the trip. zOMG.

Tonight is BWL. I've been out of commission for the past week or so on raiding, so I'm trying to get back into the swing of things. I still can't believe I missed them taking Nef down. Hopefully we clear Nef this week again, and I get to see it live and in person. A couple of tier 2 pieces wouldnt' hurt too much either, heh. I have 110 dkp to blow in there, and I don't use it. I hope we get some Transy drops. W00t.

Guild Wars with Jeff is fun. I hope we get some of that in too. And maybe I can sign him up for Sunday night MC, hehehehehe. Omg. I've officially crossed over to nerdom.

I had a dream last night, that I went to NY. Actually, it was more a nightmare. Not b/c I was in NY, but because I'd forgotten my laptop, and I was spazzing out the whole time. LOLz.

Alright, alright. I get it. WORK!.

the woo. lolz

rich (9:44:17 AM): when do you leave to new york
Mrs Kristen C (9:46:28 AM): i leave friday
rich (9:48:03 AM): alrighty
rich (9:48:14 AM): that gives me some time to prepare the woo

5 times the excitement

Fiveeeeee days. Five days til I hop on a plane to NY. Am I excited? Heck yeah, I'm excited. I'm also really apprehensive. I feel like I have tons of things to do, and just not enough time to do any of them. The stress is starting to come down on me, but hopefully, everything works itself out a least a little bit by friday.

We won't even get into how incredibly nervous I am about Jeff and all of that. That's just nerve wrecking. I'm trying not to think about it too much, since I know I'll have PLENTY of time to stress while I'm on the plane. Plenty of time being 5 hours worth of time. I'm sure I'll be freaking out. Hello Xanax.

In other not-so-great-or-exciting news, I'm broker then broke. I've taken myself on a couple of little unnecessary shopping sprees lately, and it's costin' me. I just couldn't stop myself from walking into these stores though. I did a full wardrobe re-vamp. I'm really happy with my purchases, I just don't feel I made them at the appropriate time, ha. Either which way, I think I'll be okay. I'm excited :D

Other not-so-great news? I've caught a cold. My throat is killing me. I have to nip this thing in the bud so that it doesn't end up ruining my vacation.

I really had no idea that Hollister carried such cute stuff. I dropped in yesterday, and ended up leaving with:

And if you want to ask me if I feel like a total 'tard for shopping at Hollister like a 10 lbs. 15-year-old, go right ahead.
Wait, let me save you the trouble of asking. Yes, I do feel like a 'tard.
I had to get in touch with my woman-ly side, and to feel a little more like an adult, I went ahead and blew $150 at Victoria's Secret. Adult stuff FTW!

I bought that fragrance at Hollister (which I think I love) and the stupid salesgirl left it on the counter, instead of in my bag. Stupid girl and her stupid scene hair. I have to go back tonight to pick it up, and resist the urge to continue my shopping. GOODNESS. They did that on purpose, I'm sure. Those tricky surfer-teens and their bad lighting.

Ok, work work work.

Photos ripped from the blushing bride - Gini

I can't wait for her wedding! I'll be posting a humongous "congratulations" for her in August.
I've already got my dress picked out for the wedding ;) Now, all I need is a date.

Bossman lovin'

bossman (2:17:37 PM): open a new microsoft word document
bossman(2:17:47 PM): tell me when youve got it
Mrs Kristen C (2:18:22 PM): i've got nothin'
bossman(2:18:35 PM): open a new microsoft word document
bossman (2:18:41 PM): tell me when its open
Mrs Kristen C (2:18:44 PM): open
bossman (2:18:50 PM): save as
bossman (2:18:59 PM): "lefty's self esteem booster"
Mrs Kristen C (2:19:19 PM): saved
bossman (2:21:06 PM): kristen is breath takingly beautiful, and is one of my favorite people everim very happy that my good friend jeff found her, and that i introduced them...he deserves such a wonderful girl as kristenshe is hands down the best healer i ever played world of warcraft with, and is without a question the biggest thing i miss about playing the gamei am very excited to see her when she comes to visit, and im sure the rest of my friends are as well
bossman(2:21:09 PM): copy and paste that
Mrs Kristen C (2:21:31 PM): I FREAKIN' LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVEEEEEEE YOUUUUUUUUUUU
bossman (2:21:47 PM): bossman loves lefty
bossman (2:21:53 PM): (throw that in there too)
Mrs Kristen C (2:21:53 PM): LEFTY LOVES BOSSMAN
bossman (2:22:10 PM): now whenever you dont feel loved
bossman (2:22:14 PM): you can look at that

Oldies but goodies.

I ninja'd these from Marlene's computer yesterday, while I was looking for pictures of Grandma to post.
I thought they were precious, and added a little sunshine to a gloomy day.

Work is full of lovely distractions.

Aba Papi

I'm taking this a lot harder then I ever thought I would. I'm so full of regret in regards to the whole situation. It's weighing very heavily upon me.
I love my grandmother.
I'm so ashamed of myself.
I know that when someone passes away, every body plays the blame game with themselves, and they start thinking of all of the ways they fell short, but the truth is, I didn't make any effort with my grandmother.
I deserve to live with the regret.

May she rest in peace, my little grandma. She was the most selfless and giving person I ever knew. She would take from herself, to give to others. She would never let anyone go without. Even when she didn't have a penny to her name, she gave. She spent more then a few sleepless nights worried over and fighting for the people she loved. She did her best, always, to help everyone. She was stubborn and set in her ways, but she was one strong little woman. She will never be forgotten by her grand daughter, and I will make sure that my daughter knows how much her great-grandma loved her.

This has been a very sad weekend, indeed.

Isabel Revuelta

August 4th, 1928 - July 15th, 2006
Rest in peace.

July 15, 2006, I lost my last grandparent.
I've wished many times that things were different in our relationship. It didn't take her dying for me to understand that, at least.
But, you get what you give, I suppose.

May she rest in peace, my little "aba papi". I love her very much, whether or not she knew and understood it.